mrnetgear

I sit here alone, looking at my dark screen.
waiting for a notification from you.
something, anything, hoping for you to take the first step one day.
is it me? my selfrespect is eating me alive, slowly consuming me in doubt and darkness.
was my last just a fluke? 8 years of lies and deceptions? maybe.
i was happy, skeptical but happy. someone was out there, maybe for me? a friend? a lover?
I am getting old, i dont know how this works anymore, my view is twisted and wrong.
I am looking at my dark screen, waiting for a message from you.
my darkest fears are consuming me, telling me this is my reality, my life.
Like dried leaves in the wind, spent, trash for nature, rotting down in the soil.
waiting to stop existing in this world, unnoticed by everyone.
I sit in darkness, hoping you would light my world.